16 Things I need to Stop Doing to myself - I should Stop holding grudges.
I shouldn't live my life with hate in my heart, because in the end I will only be hurting myself. Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.” It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.” Forgiveness is the answer… let go!
Forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for me too. I must forgive myself too, move on and try to do better next time.I'm good at holding grudges. Unfortunately.
.. I mean, I'm still pissed off at CGL, a kid from my class, when I was 8 years old, because he pushed me down the stairs. I nearly clawed his eyes out,... And I still haven't forgiven him.... Luckily I can also forgive things ... I have.
But I've held more grudges over the last 7 years than ever before. I've been angry with my husband, my work, my colleagues, my parents, ... my life itself. I've
resented everyone and myself with the exception of Iris. Forgiving others is, by now, no longer the hardest thing. I can see why I need to let go. And letting go has certainly helped me to get rid of a lot the stuff that was messing with my head.
But forgiving myself is harder. I should have done so many things differently. I should have made other choices. If only I hadn't... made the choices I made. Logically I know know that I can't go back on the choices I've made. I don't have a time-machine,.. but emotionally ... I can't forgive myself.