2015 02 15

[sylviane]

Nine years ago, the day after Valentine, I found out that my husband had fallen in love with another woman. He had given her a gift, love-letter included. She wasn't interested in him, so she put it on my doorstep, with my name on it. It broke my heart and it nearly killed me. Iris became my only reason for continue living. Well, I'm not going to dwell on it anymore. I have been for 9 years. Enough is enough.

I've quietly started my diet again since last Thursday. I've given myself a 16 weeks challenge  (11 Feb to 2 June) to lose 24 kg. (That is 1.5 kg per week) Not going perfect just yet, but that's alright. I knew that these last few days (until today) would be hard, so I'm not putting extra pressure on myself. I'm watching what I eat. I've cut certain things such as chips and cookies, and I tried to squeeze in fruit and vegetables and drink a lot of water. I'm back to taking my vitamines and my algae-pills.

I love tea with lots of sugar in it, so I'm cutting back on my tea now. Tried drinking it with less sugar, but I can't drink that stuff without sugar in it. :) And artificial sweeteners aren't an option either, wrong taste of sweetness. I found another option though. A herbal drink with 20 herbs in it. Let's try that for few weeks and see. :)

A lot of small steps that will hopefully become a HUGE step ahead.

I started 11 Feb with 172.5 kg (well, actually 172.3 kg, but I like 'round' numbers). 9 years ago, when I found out, I weighed 152 kg. For my birthday I'd like to weigh around that weight again.

I've quietly applied for a job (crossing fingers!). It sounds like my dream-job. Credit-controller who has to speak French and English. Just what I'm looking for. All I'm asking for is a chance.  :)

Been cleaning up and cleaning out a few things. I've been going through and throwing away old magazines. I've cleared out boxes and thrown away some old clothes that I've been mending too many times. I've been holding on to too much clutter anyway. :o)

Babysteps......