2015 02 15

[sylviane]

So, I'm back. Having survived Valentine's Day and 'the day after' (that is usually over by 7.45 am to 8.30 am, the moment I found out, dropped Iris at my parents' place, drove to work on automatic pilot and only at work dumbfoundedly told my colleague, that I found out my husband was in  love with someone else), I can now pick up the pieces and move on. Fortunately, every year there are fewer pieces to pick up, so I'm quicker at being 'done' this with this day.

A few years ago, I'd be physically sick on this day. Today, aside from a regret or two, I'm already feeling better already. The pain cuts less deep every year and this year it seems to have barely left a scratch. That's good. It means I've given it a place in my life and that I'm moving on. I still hate Valentine's Day though. I think that will continue until someone gives me back that feeling of being loved on that day, instead of being treated like a fool.

My belly still aches somewhat. I think I will get in touch with my doctor to find out what I can and can't do. This week I'm stuck anyway. It's Carnaval in our part of Holland and Iris has a week off, the hubby is free Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. And for me it's the time of the month where I'd rather be playing dead anyway, so I'm good. :)

I had gained some weight this week, but I weighed (out of curiosity) this morning knowing it's never smart to weigh during the weekend or immediately after the weekend. The total score was 170,2 kg. I should have waited for the results until Friday because this time of the month my entire body is unbalanced anyway. But I'm good with it. Nothing to get depressed about anyway.

Starting Thursday or Friday, I want to get back to swimming though. Maybe Iris wants to come along. I don't know yet. Could be that she'll be the one who just wants to 'play dead'. :) My girl is no longer a girl, but a woman, still takes some getting used to sometimes. :)

I've written a few small things, nothing B&S, just some small prompts, quick to write things, have still 2 or 3 short stories in my head too, taking shape. I'm not sure how/where to post. Here on LJ no one will read it, I think. Other places are just not that appealing right now. So, not sure yet what to do. We'll see.

I wonder if anyone read "Snowfall" before I deleted it?

"I'll begin again': I've posted the clip as my video-clip for today and I think it would also be my  "Quote of the day", It certainly ressembles my feelings. :)

My inspiration-card for today is:

"Today, I will remain loyal to myself and I will not cross my own bounderies."

Well, if the card says-so, who am I to disagree, right? ;)

I've decided to make this a slow, lazy, thoughtful day. Tonight we'll eat 'Hamburgers à la Sylviane'. This means half a bread-bun, some lettuce, hamburger, egg sunny side up covered with bacon and melted cheese, mayonaise, tomato-ketchup, a bit of fried unions, the other half of  the bread-bun. Open wide! :)
The remainder of the lettuce is used as a side-dish.

I know! Calories! Cholesterol!! But, damn, it's Sunday! And yolo!

Today is also the 64th birthday of my favorite actress: Jane Seymour. Here as Serena (or Serina, spelling often varies) in Battlestar Galactica.

Did you know that Iris's second name is Serena? I loved the flow of the name: Iris Serena.

Early 1980s, I knew that if ever I would have a daughter I'd name her Catherina or Catherine (and shorten it to Cathy).
Jane Seymour's first child was also named Katherine and the character (played by Jane Seymour)  I still love the most (aside from Serena) was Cathy Ames in the mini-serie "East of Eden". Sensationally pretty bitch!

Then it turned out that my mother-in-law's first name is Catharina..... So, it was back to the drawing-board to get a new name for a girl, because I just knew that I would for all eternity hear my MIL say that my daughter got named after her. Cold, bloody freezing day in hell!

My hubby wanted to give Iris the name Isis and I said 'no, but I'd love the name Iris'. We both agreed and then I asked if we could add 'Serena' to it and he loved it. Funny thing is that I remember that I was 6-7 month's pregnant, when my mom told me that it was the first time (and only time!) she had purple irisses in her garden, they were usually yellow. No one yet knew the names we had picked if it was a girl. Coincidence? :)

Well, I'm off to make my calorie-bombs. Until later,.... Maybe! :)