2015 02 15

[sylviane]

Nine years ago, the day after Valentine, I found out that my husband had fallen in love with another woman. He had given her a gift, love-letter included. She wasn't interested in him, so she put it on my doorstep, with my name on it. It broke my heart and it nearly killed me. Iris became my only reason for continue living. Well, I'm not going to dwell on it anymore. I have been for 9 years. Enough is enough.

I've quietly started my diet again since last Thursday. I've given myself a 16 weeks challenge  (11 Feb to 2 June) to lose 24 kg. (That is 1.5 kg per week) Not going perfect just yet, but that's alright. I knew that these last few days (until today) would be hard, so I'm not putting extra pressure on myself. I'm watching what I eat. I've cut certain things such as chips and cookies, and I tried to squeeze in fruit and vegetables and drink a lot of water. I'm back to taking my vitamines and my algae-pills.

I love tea with lots of sugar in it, so I'm cutting back on my tea now. Tried drinking it with less sugar, but I can't drink that stuff without sugar in it. :) And artificial sweeteners aren't an option either, wrong taste of sweetness. I found another option though. A herbal drink with 20 herbs in it. Let's try that for few weeks and see. :)

A lot of small steps that will hopefully become a HUGE step ahead.

I started 11 Feb with 172.5 kg (well, actually 172.3 kg, but I like 'round' numbers). 9 years ago, when I found out, I weighed 152 kg. For my birthday I'd like to weigh around that weight again.

I've quietly applied for a job (crossing fingers!). It sounds like my dream-job. Credit-controller who has to speak French and English. Just what I'm looking for. All I'm asking for is a chance.  :)

Been cleaning up and cleaning out a few things. I've been going through and throwing away old magazines. I've cleared out boxes and thrown away some old clothes that I've been mending too many times. I've been holding on to too much clutter anyway. :o)

Babysteps......

Comments

[micqu.livejournal.com]

this sounds amazing... I mean you are an amazing person but the way you take life in your hands now, that's great. De-cluttering your life might be just the right thing to do.
Do you mind if I try to lose some weight with you? I stopped or neglected my diet after Christmas and started again on my birthday (of all days, lol. When I started last September, I was at 118kg and before Christmas I was at 105. Then I was up to 107 again and down to 106.3 this morning... oh the numbers... I might not be able to lose 24kg, but maybe seeing someone else doing it might keep my motivation a bit higher.

Finger crossed for that job... Someday the right thing will come our way, I am sure of it.
*hugs* to you

and always remember, even baby steps will take you forward. xx

[difficultisgood.livejournal.com]

Nope, I don't mind. :) Glad with the company during this time of misery ;)

With your weight losing 24kg in 16 weeks might indeed be too much too fast. Not saying it can't be done, but it's better to lose it over a longer time and make sure it STAYS off and not fluctuate to much. Do you have a (realistic!) goal of what you'd like to weigh?

For me it would be between 82-85 kg. I know that 'the statistics' say that I should weigh 75-78 kg, but when I weighed 78kg (YEARS ago!!) you could literally count my ribs. So 82-85kg was the period when I looked/felt my best.

That target is however too far away right now and so the advice to me was to take 'smaller bites', which is the reason why I'm concentrating on the 150 kg marker for now. It would be a HUGE improvement on my body if I could reach that. :)

I'd love it if you're coming along for the ride. :)